“The Sexually Promiscuous Male” by Benjamin Morse (up to Chapter 2)
“Creative Confidence” by Tom & David Kelly (YouTube)
Basic matrix – egolessness (bliss)
Foreground – teleological effort (discipline)
Background – basic instinct (indulgence)
1 > 2 > 3 – importance & chronological
1=> 2 => 3 – ontological & logical
– Sex-positive culture
– Run away
– If you follow the alternate day rhythm, then what happens to the weekly Sabbath (Sunday)?
If Saturday was a freak day, then Monday will be work day, & if Saturday was a work day, then Monday will be freak day.
The freak day is not a complete Sabbath. Only the 4 hour fixed study period is supended for extra-curricular stuff – maybe a movie & 2 hours of self-learning.
– I want to run away, I want to stay.
I want to be free, I want to be safe.
I want stability, I want excitement.
I want variety, I want consistency.
I want novelty, I want familiarity.
I want challenge, I want malaise.
I want chaos, I want order.
I want to feel good, I want to be right.
I want to go crazy, I want to become sane.
I want to indulge, I want to serve.
I want, I want, I want,
I don’t want, I don’t want, I don’t want……
I like, I like, I like,
I don’t like, I don’t like, I don’t like……
I love, I love, I love,
I hate, I hate, I hate……
Yes, yes, yes,
I, I, I,
No, No, No!
– 1. Abide in the Always Already (being/apocalyptic/religious/mystical/know/live)
2. Seek the Kingdom (becoming/eschatological/ethical/social/ought/love)
3. Just express it! (doing/instinctive/aesthetic/private/want/fuck)
– I am the Dark Knight by day & Bruce Wayne by night!