Pensees

16.4.14

– Controlling, demanding & threatening each other…

– TT – alternate block with top-spin (forehand), otherwise you will unnecessarily tire yourself out by hitting heavy top-spin shots continuously during practice…

– I should have waited for at least 2 days (48 hours) after blood-donation, before any physical exertion. And I should never again combine watching with either fasting or rigorous exercise.

– Androgyny

– ‘Differently-abled’

‘Special needs’

– Planning Commission

– Judicial reform

– Manslaughter

– Calm, steady, clear

Vs.

Anxious, insecure, confused

– Attention, observation, awareness

– Distinguish:

Immediacy

&

Urgency

– The burden of survival » misery & despair!

– Uncertainty, loneliness & inadequacy

– I think I should attend church only on special occasions (holy days/festivals). Not on all alternate Sundays as I do now!

– Being, time & thought

– Choiceless consciousness!

– Education – how do we raise healthy & responsible children?

– Dying & living » living & dying » dying & living!

– Realizing freedom ~ discovering life!

– Docudrama

– J. Krishnamurthi videos:

The Challenge of Change

Total Freedom

– Unlearn & relearn:

How to breathe?

How to walk?

How to talk?

How to think?

How to see?

– Is it possible to live without money?!

– Commune

Clan

Cult

Tripper

Sesshin

Pygmalion

“I-thou” & “All-is-one”

Myth, ritual & bliss

Sunyata

Samadhi

News

15.4.14

Zen Effects – Allan Watts biography

‘Aware unself-consciousness’

Crypto-currencies + crowd-funding!
The Statue of Responsibility Project

‘Paradime shift’

Mock modesty, studied objectivity, cautious opinion…

From dour Puritan to joyful pagan!

Alimony

The Beats

Fuck ministry, Joe! Just live……

Pederasty

Dollar

Gyzym

Shrew

Hung jury

Poverty, religious community & liberated sexuality
Vs.
Consumerism, family & careerism

Suburban bourgeoisie

Lugubrious

Spiritual showman

I Ching

Exotic, esoteric & sensual spiritualities!
But do they make you selfish, lazy & stupid?

That is a feminine trait (sentimental attachment), nothing ‘childish’ about it…
Just let her be!

Insanity, ecstasy & liberation!

Is the New Age spirituality just another ‘opium of the masses’, like Hollywood showbiz, that numbs & blinds them to the structural evils & cultural diseases under/within which they exist?
This is why we still need (Christian) theological ethics!

Experimental, FOREVER!
If we are to be dynamic, radical, audacious, committed & ecumenical, then we will also be erratic, immature, spontaneous, incoherent & unsettled…
HALLELUJAH, AMEN.

The Great Command – you must be in awe of Life itself, before you can love anyone (including yourself) rightly!

Baptism: Clot & ice + FIRE = blood & water!

Conscious labour & intentional suffering

The pain of loneliness is far more preferable than the burden of a stagnant & stale relational arrangement!

The enemy (of the spirit) is NOT the body, but the mind!

Being there when push comes to shove is more important than being regular to the periodic meetings…

Sensual pleasure & spiritual liberation

Iridescent

The wisdom of health!

Beauty >> wonder >> joy!

Self – the quaking, messy vortex of this isolated, fearful, repressed & defensive bag-of-skin!

Blither
Wheedle

Impish
Naughty, mischievous, funny, risqué

When the other does what pleases you, out of their own accord, even without you asking or telling, then the joy that comes from that kind of love is incomparable. It is far superior to the other person responding to your request by sacrificing what they actually want!
Isn’t this true of any intimate relationship – spiritual or social?

– Can you have intimacy, commitment & belonging, without possessiveness, jealousy & manipulation?

– Maybe all formal programs – not only the church worship service, but also the small group meetings – should be radically modified to sustain & promote spiritual growth in this new, ever-changing context!
Fixed group meetings should not be the only modality of fellowship & ministry. Appointments for individual counseling, telecommunication, etc. should also be used often. Strategy should be more flexible & relevant.

– Love – what one does for the other should be done freely & voluntarily, not out of fear or obligation. And what one expects of the other should be expressed gently without any notion of demanding or compelling.

– Druid

– Christian legends

– “I want to nurture you like a flower… And then enjoy watching you bloom & blossom gloriously, in every way, my baby! :-* ”

– This room is my temple, my laboratory, my playground!

Thoughts

14.4.14

– The divinity of Adam & the humanity of Christ

– Money & meaning

Money & relationships

Money & health

Money & happiness

Money & work

Money & power

Money & art

– Taught by GOD – stages:

Jn.9:11,15 » Jn.9:25,17,30-32 » Jn.9:35-38

– Metatheology – GOD & self; faith & life; personhood & the world

– When Jesus of Nazareth fully attained GOD-consciousness/self-realization, he became Jesus Christ!

– ‘The Deep Magic’:

Self-sacrifice as substitution or compensation for another person’s faults/flaws » ‘reversal of death’ (since the Law-link between an individual’s sin & their own death is broken) » divinization of the self & salvation of the other!

So the vicarious victim’s death is not a result of their own sin, & the death of the ‘sinner’ is also not due to his/her sin, because it has already been ‘paid’ for by the death of the substitute. The death of the substitute is due to the another’s (sinner’s) misdeeds and the death of the sinner is due to another’s (‘original/Adamic’) sin. So both the substitute and the sinner are resurrected, since neither of their death is ‘deserved’!!!

– Evil = law-sin (personal) + suffering-death (cosmic)

Therefore, salvation/redemption = reconciliation-atonement + renewal-resurrection!

– Education ~ training ~ coaching ~ moulding

– Social cognitive theory

– Distinguish:

Anti-establishment

&

Anti-social

– Moral judgment:

Self-interest

Vs.

Social order

Vs.

Intuitive ideals

– Distinguish:

Social order

&

Human welfare

Self-esteem

&

Self-importance

– Institutionalism

– Individual – originality, authenticity & creativity

– Personal freedom & the fulfilling of (esp. biblical) prophecy.

– What do you think about the theory that says, before they were even born, each person chose their own parents!

– Facetious

Bohemian shaman

There are 2 kinds of language:
Descriptive
&
Kerygmatic!

Satori – trying not to try!

Life, power & truth

Is ‘formal’ the opposite of ‘spiritual’?

The liquidation/fluidification (NOT sublimation/transformation) of the ego!

In “flagrante delicto”

Intelligent humour

Chattel

Hot toddy

Belly-laugh

Good sense, compassion & humour

Lines

12.4.14

– I am an unrepentant sinner, on the way to Heaven!

– Rooted & built up:

Foundation – Jesus Christ

Material – costly/high quality

Plan – GOD’s will

Purpose – GOD’s glory

13.4.14

– Movies:

Death of a Salesman

– “…listen to the tongue of one who is taught.”

– Superb sermons which are absolutely useless!

Haberdasher

Commonland

Limerick

Bawdy

Spartan (adj.)

Compare the childhood of C.S. Lewis & Alan Watts – especially the boarding school experience
Ronin

Koan

Simplicity, spontaneity & humour

Rascal-guru

Zazen

Tai-chi

Sensei

A sexual spirituality

Layabout

Any spirituality that talks only of one’s “intimacy with GOD” and no place for human relationships, personal vocation, social concerns, etc. is worthless!

Thomas Merton & Zen

Eclecticism >> syncretism!

Words

11.4.14

– Change watching (night sleep + day sleep) from 4+2 to 4&1/2 + 2&1/2

– Advanced search

– Egghead     Longhair

– Townie

– Interloper

– Have you ever smelt the breath of GOD?!

– Research, education & service

Religion, faith & witness

– Vox populi ~ Vox dei?

– Radical reformulation

– Ultimately, spiritual growth is an individual responsibility, and mainly depends upon the people themselves, not the leader or the resources or the system – these factors are only secondary.

– Is there such a thing as divine tradition?

– Power of GOD

Vs.

Worldly wisdom

Divine wisdom

Vs.

Carnal power

Spirit

Vs.

Intellect

– Is Jesus still in the church??

– Sensuous asceticism!

– Knowledge, discipline & mystery

– Is play as important as purpose & passion?

– Language as symbol – vehicle for communicating realities.

– Dr. Augustine Asir

– Parents worthy to have a ‘special’ (handicapped) child!

– Personal retardation » burden/suffering for those close to you!

– Dr. Emmma thinks I may have a ‘developmental problem’!

– We need a new jargon for this generation!

– Seasonal fruits & evergreen trees

– Where is the faith & peace?

Where is the hope & joy?

Where is the love?

– From what do you draw your strength?

– Certain things, in fact the most important things, cannot be done hurriedly!

– Abiding in the fellowship

– NOT fearing (fleeing/fighting) whatever happens to you is obedience (to GOD)!

– If you love those you live with, then you will be blessed/joyful!

– Self-understanding + self-discipline + self-sacrifice = self-realization!

– Walking in Christ

– You become like the one with whom you spend most of your time!

– Knowing » loving » obeying

– Conversation/intercourse (give/speak & take/listen) » intimacy

– Loving sex & lustful relationship

– How can I reach, touch & hold GOD?

– Community-living – maybe this is the resolution of the family/fellowship divide, just like Calling is the answer to the career/ministry tension!

– Do you think the menace of busyness can be solved just by being better organized, or is a more radical solution required?

– D.G.S. Dhinakaran & Jim Reeves

Scribbles

10.4.14

– Is my wife an ‘intellectual’?

– Lament & invective

– No guidance, no focus

No focus, no passion

No passion, no excellence

No excellence, no joy

No joy, no meaning!

– There are only 2 kinds of people in this world:

Those who give up

&

Those who don’t

– Talent

Vs.

Skill

– Intellect

Vs.

Conscience

– Are all bisexuals also promiscuous?

Are all those who are promiscuous also sex-addicts?

– Downloads:

Edward Debono ebook collection

TTC Course on Creative Thinking

– Which is more dangerous:

Belief without thought

Or

Thought without belief?

– Which is more harmful:

Individualism

Or

Communism?

– Why is this short film called “8”?

– Wacky

– Short films:

8

Abigail

Black hole

Captivus

Shave it

The God

You there

Runners

Jatku Leiba

Requiem for Romance

– Doing theology = faith + aspiration + experience + practice + understanding

– Have one-to-one meetings with members of the online fellowship also.

– Community-living – building a new family (upon the foundation of the old)!

– Doing Theology – Chapter 1 from “Faith in Search of Understanding”

– Herpetology

– The Church, Christendom & the Kingdom of GOD

– DIY

– Dilettantism

– Theology – sources, norms/criteria & methods

– Introduction to “Shaping Your Faith”

– Theology – our words on the Word.

Are there any ‘self-evident truths’ left?

One-to-one – confide, lament, rant, muse, whine……

Musings

9.4.14

– Strong vs. Weak:

Do I derive my self-esteem from my work, or do I minister out of a sense of vocational identity?

– Maybe the urge to get an official qualification for my role as a minister and the thought of charging for my services are temptations that I should resist.

It should never be forgotten that this is a SPIRITUAL (not academic or social or even ecclesiastical) work!

– The greatest sin is that of indifference, apathy & complacency! The manifestation of the supreme evil of pride-despair-anxiety……

– What does “bondage to sin” mean, here & now, for you & me?

– Sometimes the difference between soul-salvation & self-destruction is completely invisible!

– Was there any interaction between the schools of Greek & Indian philosophy in the ancient world?

– Be true (real).

Be good (positive).

Be beautiful (interesting).

– Journal a minimum of ten lines every day.

Virtue
Vs.
Duty

Faith
Vs.
Conscience

Distinguish:
Ignorance
&
Forgetfulness

4Mac. 3:5

Is lust automatically infidelity?
The challenge is to be idealistic without becoming unrealistic!

The Tenth Commandment & feminism

4Maccabees & Moses Maimonedes

Arab philosophy/Islamic theology

What does not bring suffering (existential/social) cannot be called evil (moral/ontological).

Kingdom = forgiveness-reconciliation + miracles-mission + resurrection-perfection!

Purchased NET Bible ebook (with complete notes)

Started vocational counseling for bro.Abraham

Updated certain framework documents

Organised the charitable fund for this month

Now only these 3 remain – pride, greed & cruelty. And the greatest of these is pride!

King
Vs.
High priest
Vs.
Prophet
Vs.
People
Where is GOD in all of this?!

Compare & contrast the coverage of the General Elections by:
The Indian news channels
&
The BBC

Loving the alien & the “beautiful stranger”

Why did Hitler hate the Jews??
The (anti-Semitic) Roman Catholic Church as a partner in (the execution of) the Holocaust!

Why were the Jews an especially persecuted people since ancient times??

Conspiracy theories, demonization, scapegoating

Multi-culturalism, religious pluralism & xenophobia

Sexual minorities

Propaganda >> fear >> hatred!