Watched it with Salome.
It’s not just about jealousy/possessiveness/insecurity.
It’s about how one sees/knows/understands the relationship and the other being shattered by a discovery.
And this comes so late in life, that you are now stuck in a situation where the past has been dismantled, and there is not much of a future either!
Identity = memories (experiential continuity)
Secrets ~ ghosts ~ fault-lines
– I went to the travel agent. Are you going to Switzerland?
– No. I’m not.
– Why not?
– Well, I can’t walk to the village without… without sitting down. How am I going to climb a fucking mountain?
– And that’s the reason?
– No, Kate, that’s not the reason.
– Because if you do go, and if I…
– Oh, Christ, Kate. This isn’t about Katya.
– Please, stop saying her name. I can’t bear it.
– It isn’t… It isn’t about Katya.
– It is. Of course it is. Like me discovering what this smell is around the house.
– Oh, please.
– And it’s her perfume, OK? It’s like she’s been standing in the corner of the room all this time, behind my back.
– Oh, come on.
– And it’s tainted everything. All our decisions, where we go on holiday, what books we read, what dog you want to choose, what music we want to listen to. And the big things, too. Especially the big things.
– She’s had nothing to do with any of that.
– I’d like to be able to tell you everything I’m… thinking, and everything I know, but I can’t.
– Do you understand that?
– Yeah. Yes, I do.
– All I want now is for you to just come to the party tomorrow.
– Of course I’m going to come.
– I really need you to want to be there.
– Yes, I do want to be there.
– Because it’s one thing me knowing I haven’t been enough for you. It’s something… ..altogether different that everyone else feels it, too.
– You really believe you haven’t been enough for me?
– No. I think I was enough for you. I’m just not sure you do.
– Ah, Kate. That’s terrible.
– Have you taken your pills today?
– Then I’m going to get them. And then we’re going to have dinner, and then we’re going to go to bed. And then we’re going to get up. And we’ll try and start again.
– OK, Kate, I can do that. We can do that. I promise.