RAMBLINGS

24.5.21

– Ikigai, Kaizen, Hygge

– It’s all real, Joe!
Everything.
It’s all real!

– The world is one big cock which GOD is sucking, not just one big forest he’s burning! 🔥

25.5.21

– Movies:
“நெஞ்சம் மறப்பதில்லை”

“Love Exposure” (2008, Japanese)
Compare with Conor Cunningham’s “Nihilism” chapter from “Oxford Handbook of Theology & Modern European Thought”
The 2 options between GOD & nothing. The movie presents a third option – LOVE!

“Army of the Dead”
WOW! Approaches the level of “Mad Max: Fury Road” in the perfect creative blending of gory action and genius insight.

– randomizer
laicizing
millenary

– Space & time are just illusions. Have you realized this yet?

27.5.21

– defenestrate
dissemble

28.5.21

– Collective loneliness
Social robots

– Remembering why we forget

4.6.21

– Alter-description questionnaires

5.6.21

– 2:19

– Nils Frahm – T. M. Krishna = .

7.6.21

– At any given moment, learn to clearly distinguish between:
1. Emotions/feelings & thoughts (psychological)
2. Bodily sensations (physical)
3. Desires/beliefs/values (spiritual)

– Precision eraser

– Getting the ecstasy into everyday life, by getting some agony into the trip!
Nils Frahm is tripping, with Immanuel Joseph…… 😁

– Psychedelia, without direct chemical supplementation!

– Porn
Vs.
Veto

– The answer is YES!
Do you know what the question is?
“Is this really happening??”

– I’m going to have teenage sex with my wife!

– Creating a space for cowardice in a brutal world!

11.6.21

– Novelty via recombination

– You should become more bold, Joe, not less. You are too careful, as opposed to popular opinion!

12.6.21

– Do not throw swines before pearls!

– The only way to be yourself is to become nobody!

– DjokerNole

12.6.21

– But why can’t the WHY question NOT be answered?!

– hipster
salmagundi
divvy

– Look at them watching……!

14.6.21

– inveigle
Sabbatarian
asperity
The gospel of manual labour
Go on the stump
otiose
Reforming dynasties

16.6.21

– crotchless
in-habit-ation
Qabalol

– Deviant Art core membership & etiquette – Satanism is allowed, but pornography is not!

– Suffering is life!
The dead don’t suffer.

– My stamina for suffering turns me on!

– YOU choose what is at the forefront of your consciousness at any moment!

– Simulate the visual physically!

– GROW – qualitatively AND quantitatively!

– I am going to ride my Superbike on the Canadian freeway!

– I am going to fuck a porn-star body. NOT, I am wishing or imagining, but I am going to make it actually happen!

– I am going to become the spiritual mentor for his mission hospital in North India.

– I am going to prove to her, that I am the Alpha male in her husband’s life!

– I am going to have a beautiful Canadian daughter, whom I worship!

– This day, you will never forget, because……….

– I’M gonna reproduce!

– Campy meta-commentary

– Heaven of Horror

– Anya Chalotra

– The real
Vs.
The actual

– INTENSE MILDNESS is the secret.

– Naturalistic emigration

– I was a Godfather BEFORE I became a father.

– 28wiakmz…

– Sugarcrash – “I got the rest of my life to fuck around”
Version 2.0, comin’ up, folks!

– अपना टाइम आया है

– The human monster

– “I’d kill rather than be killed”
Embrace your destiny
“Or you can leave Blaviken and finally live. You choose, Princess.”

“You are her blood, Princess. The apple never falls far from the tree.”

– Have you ever used anger as a superpower?
You will!

– “How long will it hold?”
“As long as I hold.”

– Monster-kisser

– “Go! The world depends on it.”
My great commission

– Make Black friends

– Play guitar with Danny – 1 each!

– Heroics + heartbreak ~ death + destiny

– Conduit moment

– Magic is harnessing chaos!

– I am going to end poverty!
Narcissistic philanthropist & misogynist

– The hard guitar case is allowed inside the main cabin!

– Start reading like hell.
Spend 1 hour in silence & solitude everyday.
Fuck/freak/break often.

– I can taste with my eyes

– I’ve CAUGHT lightning in a bottle
LUCKY success

– No secrets is what it takes

– Chaos is the SAME forever!

– I have learnt to live with them (WHITES) so that I may live

– My WORST fear is TRUE!

– Speaking Elder – WHOOSH

– Please make her beautiful in this episode itself 🙏🏽

– Respect doesn’t make history
Throw away your need/crutch.

– Maria Sakkari

– Nothing is the ONLY thing that cannot be controlled.

– We stone each other – death by stoning!

17.6.21

– You don’t know what you’re missing, because you’ve never had it!

– Divine temptation – formidable persuader!

– Love……
The damned!

– SLOW technology

– India >> CANADA >> Heaven >>

– Could I ever play/dance/fight like her?
Yes, I know it’s unthinkable, but stranger things have happened!

– Post-mortem vindication

– Theoretical friendships

– “There is a friend who sticks closer than a brother”
My love is like strong wine, you will get knocked out! 😇

– Romancing the globe 🌐

– Chance + destiny = DESIGN!

– Impulsive insights

– Self-doubt
Vs.
Ego-death

– Just as I fully realized myself on that day (stoned Perry Mason), I have now consummated my marriage too!

18.6.21

– Thinking chair

19.6.21

– Psychedelic spirituality
From stoned to stoner!
Be-getting
Spirituality ~ lifestyle ~ personification

– mage 🧙♂️

– To be at the peak and to feel it’s not the peak
&
To feel as if one is at the peak when one is not
Both are fantastic options! 😎

– Maybe this is one of the most rigorous forms of spiritual exercise!

– Porn is the real truth tv!

– All my links dot com

– Cyber-community

– Love OF lust
&
Lust FOR love

– WTC
World Trade Center
Vs.
World Test Championship

– Playmaker – shake things up a bit – create an opening for something to happen!

20.6.21

– Film porn

– I am going to become a pornosopher, by making philosophical pornography!

– Below Her Mouth – I was just wondering if there are any films which manage to integrate lust & life……!

– From friends to lesbian lovers!
WOW! I can’t believe I just said that to you……….

– take everyone to the strip club

– the power of public n*****
( nudity)

– This is both the most difficult & easiest thing I have ever done

– Joel you have been here a million times  you are here now and you will be here a million times more efore

– O s*** (shit!) where did you learn this? Oh my GOD!

– Nagalakshmi.RTP
security

– The ass-hole of the universe

– Understated delivery
Mumblecore genre

21.6.21

– Have you qualified for the ultimate test?

– Task View shortcut (Win. 10)

– Anonymous quagga

– Perlego – could I grow spiritually, just by investing the money into this great reading service/study resource!?

– Trust Pilot

– Soft landing

– Are you over me?

– Daisy Taylor

MUSINGS

31.3.21

– pussylicious

2.4.21

– ostriches

– Movies:
“Pieces of a Woman” (2020)
“Hustlers” (2019)

4.4.21

– PER-fucking-FECTION!!!
stasyQ

5.4.21

– estivate
summering

6.4.21

– Who is Alexandra Elbakyan?

7.4.21

– Did RZ like lesbian porn?!😉

– Did Hemingway commit suicide?

– Dear X…
I am very hesitant to have ideological discussions with you, because you may be deeply offended, and that may set off another cycle of conflict between us.
I am comfortable with respecting your views (including your criticism of my beliefs). I accept that we are radically different, but also believe that we could be friends!
And it might be better to use a communication framework (like DRL) to have difficult/sensitive conversations, to minimize relational strain…?

– You want to be a cricket connoisseur, and not just an Indian fan, then also watch matches in which India is NOT playing!

13.4.21

– The cry of a dying man:
“ஆண்டவரே, நான் என்ன பன்னுவேன்?!”
“Lord… What do I do?!”

20.4.21

– “There are no bad trips!”

– Vedic metal
Ishana Night Shyamalan
canthisevenbecalledmusic.com

22.4.21

– Shrooms:
6:35 pm – 2g – no effect
7:45 pm – 3g – NOPE!

24.4.21

– rockumentary

25.4.21

– bildung
autarchy
organicism

5.5.21

– nix

– “A more reasonable estimate of human costs and values will lead us to think that “no labour is better expended than that which explores the way to the treasurehouses of the spirit, and shows mankind where to find those goods which are increased by being shared, and which none can take from us.”
– WILLIAM RALPH INGE
(From “The Spirit of the Disciplines: Understanding How God Changes Lives” by Dallas Willard)

9.5.21

– I think the problem of the meaning of life remains (maybe even more strongly), if ageing & death were not inevitable!

– godwits

11.5.21

– newsworthiness

– backronym
Millennial raw deal

14.5.21

– No gain, no pain!
The myriad forms of nothingness
Learning to learn – meta-research

– Distinguish:
The God-man
&
The Man-god
(Sergei Bulgakov)

– Non-human philosophy
mandarin
diremption
telluric

15.5.21

– Anti-Climacus
Objective despair
avocation

17.5.21

– Desperate passion
Unreasonable hope
apriority
Negative dialectics/melancholy science
Subject-object relations
Erudition in the popular
Negative pleasures
Immanent critique
Critical hedonism
Absurd rationality

– Distinguish:
The radical
&
The reactionary

SCRIBBLES

21.1.21

– misére
– topoi

22.1.21

– Bing desktop app
– Focusing, defusing & savoring skills (From “The Happiness Trap”)
– Windows themes on Microsoft Store
– “Circumfession”
Impassioned by the impossible
colloquy
Anatheism
Negative capability
Committed openness
Post-secular age
Modern saints
Sublime/sacred/transcendent
The secularization of the sacred, and the sacralization of the secular

– Why not; What if

– Porn blog
Queering greatness/uniqueness/originality

23.1.21

– Hidden gems ~ unknown celebrities

25.1.21

– novum
abeyant
prosopopeia
pauperism
nonidentitarian
Impersonal power
Power other than mastery
interpellate
Virtual potential
Reading as empowerment
dithyramb
abjuration/foreswear
lumpenproletariat
New Sensations
madeleine
Power > productivity
acceptation
tallow
motley crew
particolored
Distinguish actuality & enactment
Impotence as potential

26.1.21

– You’re going down (even as you’re floating up), Joe! ;-(
Process/principles over results/goals – keep on keeping on……
It seems like just making New Year Resolutions properly, is almost as tough as keeping them consistently!

– The vast majority of people must be content with NOT being “great”! Heroes/champions/celebrities will always be rare/exceptional.
Maybe this is because of a powerful combination of genetic & environmental factors (without discounting personal responsibility)…
Is this just a lame excuse for my own mediocrity/resignation/apathy, or is it rather a realistic alternative for democratic development?
I don’t want to torture myself to death, nor bury myself alive!
I want to live until I die, and then some……
So, what’s the way forward for the common, ordinary folks?

– Maybe my bitter experience with work-overload (mission hospital) is the reason behind my fear of exertion/exhaustion…
How do I regain my capacity for pushing/stretching myself (optimally)?

– Evaluate and equalize:
Unconscious, ego & superego ~ indulgence, work & growth ~ relaxation, action & contemplation
Diagnose the exact imbalance that underlies your illness, and then strategize its correction.
Right now, I definitely/desperately need to decrease the first, and increase the second & third elements.
Neither sloth nor workaholic nor mystic!

– What are the major obstacles to my health/integrity (intensity + harmony + consistency)?
Severe confusion –> Intellectual scepticism – analysis-paralysis, hyper-criticism and contrary multiple perspectives
Weak will (through chronic sedentariness)
Morbid love of misery – masochism? – side-effect of (unbridled) hedonism?

– Selfish desires < social duties < Kingdom of GOD
The family code of conduct in the NT epistles is more relevant for those who are in the first stage.
E.g. New Corinthian converts
The radical call to leave all and follow Jesus is more relevant for those who are in the 2nd stage.
E.g. Contemporary nominal Christians

27.1.21

– by dint of

28.1.21

– dogpile
cannoli
switcheroo
Temporal malaise
Naturalized depression
Refusing the failure of the future
Strategic maladjustment

– I want to feel alive. I want to enjoy every moment I exist. I want to believe I am special/important/valuable/powerful.
But………. Living is just a conscious dying!
Should I just accept this? If so, then what?? How am I supposed to continue this?!
This condition is not even worth the name “suffering”.
Empty being
Futile persistence
Continuous absence
From matter-over-mind to mind-over-matter to ethereal soul to conscious matter to unconscious life

– wispy
wont
bugbear
Objectively uncanny
pixilated

29.1.21

– LP

– zohnerism

30.1.21

– highfalutin
– IJ & Saras ~ UG & JK

31.1.21

– electorate

1.2.21

– CH erotic delirium
– Immanuel Joseph is just my play date!😉

– Wouldn’t Nietzsche look more like Bonhoeffer, if he removed his mush?
Now, what does that question even mean! 😏

– Swiss Alps – both Nietzsche & UG had significant experiences there. Maybe I should visit the site too…

– Was the Buddha ever persecuted, like Socrates or Christ? Why (not)?

– Is the Cross actually the opposite of what it seems to be, in light of the final episode of “Succession” (season 2)?!

– Eva Cybulska

– I would’ve really enjoyed sharing my experience of the last episode (especially the last scene) of “Succession” (season 2), with mummy, just like I did with “Perry Mason”

– Check out the serial “Succession” 🔥
One of the best I’ve seen!
The last scene alone is worth watching the entire 2 seasons.
Deicide is the name of the game, and it sure ain’t for the weak or even the good – witness the birth of the Ubermensch 👹🤟🏽

4.2.21

– I feel dead inside. What options/responses/choices do I have?
1. Just be active – do stuff (chores, etc.) irrespective of how you feel – will-powered discipline
2. Try to feel better – find ways to be entertained/refreshed/energized – pampering
3. Mindfulness – stay in detached observation/neutral awareness of the “deadness” – contemplation
Use a judicious mix of all 3, depending on the particular situation/need!

6.2.21

– subvention
kinnow

7.2.21

– The pornodelic experience
Noli me tangere

9.2.21

– I cannot be understood, without including the experience of (chronic/mild) depression!

– immiseration
monopsonist
yen
vole
knell

– conduce
– glissando
– glasnost

11.2.21

– kibble
Clarence Jordan

13.2.21

– aeon
scrum
sub rosa
phenom
salutatorian
scrum

15.2.21

– FROM
Untainted conscience
TO
Untainted by conscience

– Destroy your life/self/world, then you will know……!

– Find YOUR evil

– Elevating laziness into an art-form

– Becoming reality

– Don’t just be a misfit, be a rebel.

– 15 minute snooze ad infinitum 😜

– Who am I really? How do I find out?
What do I create, if I had the complete freedom?

18.2.21

– Family time ~ 1/2 hour everyday.
Eating out
Or
Casual chat
Or
Devotion
Or
Playing game
Mobile usage NOT allowed ⚠️

22.2.21

– purloin
druthers
stalactite

24.2.21

– huckster

25.2.21

– Don’t take anything too seriously!
(except this dictum) 😜

– “Non-existence is the portal of God.” – Chuang Tzu
From the “existence of God” to the “God of existence”!
nihilization

26.2.21

– “Miguel Unamuno promotes a  quixotic (because  it  lacks  a rational  foundation)  ethics  of  nobility,  heroism,  and sainthood  in ordinary  life.  Put  in the  form of  an imperative,  the  maxim of  quixotic  ethics enjoins  that  you  ought  to act  so  as  to make yourself  irreplaceable.” 

1.3.21

– destinerant

5.3.21

– “…who is so much taken with aporias and impasses, who thinks that you are really getting somewhere only when you are paralyzed and it is impossible to advance, only when there is no plannable, programmable way to proceed…” – Caputo on Derrida
– breakwater

6.3.21

– I distinguish 3 aspects/levels of reality:
Nature, culture & spirit

– Inner biographies/unconscious autobiography
Unamunian
Cardiac writers
Counter-Enlightenment
“Life is anti-reason”
Analysis Vs. Rhetoric
Strengthen/ennoble ~ upset/challenge
Passionate desperation
Action-guiding attitude
At least, intensify the boredom!
Will over knowledge
Virility as masculine virtue
Desire to believe/appetite for God
The genetic fallacy
The philosopher as a man/woman
Immortal somersault
conatus
Affective philosophy Vs. Scientific psychology

– What happens to passion (for GOD), after death (of GOD)?

– Could it be possible that UG was wrong about (life after) death?!

– Joe, would (your) immortality be the greatest curse or blessing??

– Why not have more female shrieks (like male grunts) in metal (music)?

7.3.21

– obstreperous
inanition
omnivalent

11.3.21

– Luck
    Vs.
    Fuck

– Ridhima Pathak

– pixy/pixilated
jinks
lucubration
lash
insuperable

14.3.21

– “GOD is a dancer”

– If you want more pleasure, then increase the pain

– What’s your next/new project?
Woulda, shoulda, coulda!

15.3.21

– Series:
Ozark
The Dealer (French)

– Movies:
Master (Tamil)
The Beginning (Georgian)
The Block Island Sound

16.3.21

– Hone and channel the emotions, by sandwiching them, between the will/body/action, intellect and context/structure/relationships!

– Speculative fiction
Racial spirit
pre-judgments

– Lev Shestov & anti-rational philosophy

19.3.21

– “Hi RC!
This is Immanuel Joseph… remember?
Just wanted to patch up with you after the rift ✋🏽
Can we attempt reconciliation?
Please let me know how you feel… 🙏🏾
PEACE ✌🏽”

– Truth might be stranger than fiction,
But fiction is more powerful than truth!

20.3.21

– My prudery is (my need for) respect!

– WORLDS
incesticide
surd
propaedeutic
ars moriendi
pronoia
paideusis

24.3.21

– sidle
prestidigitation
bathetic

– Ego death – U. G. Krishnamurti, Suzanne Segal & John Wren-Lewis

25.3.21

– mythopoesis

26.3.21

– Despair as a passion!
Negative dialectics

– From enlightenment/liberation to pessimism/suicide to agonism/passion!

27.3.21

– Spiritual leadership/guidance:
The process has (at least) 4 elements –
1. The divine/energy/spirit
2. The resource person/leader
3. The process/tool/method
4. The person/people/group

28.3.21

– Perfect nihilism/Negative dialectics:
NO to life/survival,
NO to death/suicide,
NO to salvation/enlightenment!

– Spiritual opioids, NSAIDS & steroids

– S&M joy
“hope-ING AGAINST Hope”
Curiosity/reflective living + critical thinking/negative dialectic + communication/dialogue = creativity/transformation!

– Joe, do you believe you are an amazing gift to this world?
Your suffering/sadness is only proportionate to your greatness/wisdom!

– Passion (active/passive):
Intense engagement ~ embracing pain